Sunday, October 24, 2010
Got My Happy Back
I finally got my happy back. I think it really is true when they say that the clothes you wear reflect you. However fun last sem was, there was just something about it which makes me think and makes me reflect on myself. It was like I had a totally different side of me --something I havent explored before. I was out of control.
I guess thats what college gives. Especially on your first year. You take risks, take chances, try everything you could possibly do. And thats exactly what I did. And now, looking back, I can see how it took a toll on me. I wasnt genuinely happy, because for some reason, I felt like I was doing something wrong, no matter how much I enjoyed it. It wasnt me to do those things. And it still isnt. If you noticed, my past outfits have been all in the shades of black or gray. Dark colors. I guess that in the end, you could say that yeah, what I wore reflected how I felt during the sem. At some point, you can say that I was pretty messed up. It was one wild wild ride. I mean, who wouldnt be messed up juggling the application for TWO intense orgs, social life, and acads? All that, added a TTh schedule of 7am-530pm, a 530pm dismissal everyday, PLUS training, anyone would be bound to break somewhere.
All this I realized in this little "break" of mine. I was just doing so much things all at the same time that I just popped and let loose. Now that I'm back home for sembreak, I just realized how carefree and peaceful life is over here at the South. Its nice being home and just being grounded, enjoying the simpler things. I miss being the homegirl that I am. And now, after a few days of reflecting, I am proud to say that I am back. Its been a long time since I've felt like this.
It's good to be home.